我的感想。。。

Konnichiwa, greeting everybody wif a big"H-E-L-L-O" 1st(^^)

Today, My heart was feelin a Bit Down, abit Unhappi and abit complicated. Still waitin 4 Dear Dear Msg...I hav been waitin 4 his msg since Morning when i woke up. Haix.... I wanna msg him 1st, but was scared to disturb him。。。。

Juz Pass One Mth and we are alrdy facin tis problem le. Realli quite sad(T_T)
Sometymes, juz wondered dat when i m in gd mood, all things will worked well 4 mii. When i m in bad mood, everything will gone wrong. Ytd, Dear Dear saw my nick in msn and den things start to went wrong....We were plannin to meet ytd, but Dear Dear suddenli say dun wan to meet. Tis can't blame him, cuz i m the one at fault. One mth passed le, and i still can't 4get my ex. No wonder Dear Dear no mood=(

Dear Dear realli treat mii vry gd, can say none of my ex hav treat mii so gd be4.. Frm the start, i had noe dat he is a gd guy, it would be my loss if i didn't cherish him. Sometymes, I feel i m not gd 4 him. I didn't treat him as gd as he treat mi. But, Dear Dear dun mind it. C ba, he is realli a gd guy。。。

I dun wan him to treat mii dat gd, cuz i m scared dat if one dae he leaves mii, dere wouldn't be another guy who loves mii as much as he do. I dun wan to take Dear Dear 4 granted, but my actions prove mii wrong. In Fact, i m always takin him 4 granted=( I m scared dat the more gd he treats mii, i will take him 4 granted. I always tell myself, I can't be like those other gals who would take their bf 4 granted.

Frm the 1st relationship till the previous relationship, i didn't cherish it well. 3verytyme if there were quarrels occur, i would feel like givin up. Pple always say - " Quarrels would bring couples closer", i used to believe it in the 1st place, but not animore now。。Mayb 4 some pple case, it realli works, but 4 my case, it doesnt work. Frm the past relationship, Quarrels onli strained the relationship - Frm Being bad to worse.

I m not the understandin, gentle, carin, pretty type of gurls, but i had a gentle, carin, understandin type of bf. I m juz not worthy 4 him. Dear Dear reallli gif in to mii a lot. Thinkin back, The things i dun like, he wun do. Things dat i like, he would try his best to do it. Wad for can i ask? Dear Dear is close to perfect, an ideal guy dat every gurls would like to hav as their bf。。

But mii, other den bully him and make him angry or sad, wad did i realli do 4 him。。。 the ans is Nothing. All the tyme is Dear Dear givin in to mii.. I didn't even gif in to him @ all. I m always talkin abt my ex in frnt of him and didn't even care abt his feelin. I m realli a bad gurl....

I always tell myself, if one dae Dear Dear regret bein wif mii and wana break, I wun blame him.. He is realli a nice guy, i shouldn't hold him back。。。No guys would like a gurl like mi..Not pretty, Character Not Gd, no $$, Not Gentle, Duno how to make her bf happi, Not carin...realli la, if i am a guy, i oso wun like tis type of gurls. Now thinkin back, no wonder some of my ex would like other gurls.

I wan to brin happiness to Dear Dear, but i think i brin him saddness more.. I onli noe how to make pple angry, make pple hate mii.. No wonder pple say i am a devil. I oso think i am a devil, those big bad devil. Sometymes, dreams is realli better den reality, But we still nid to be awake and face reality. I always wan Dear Dear to be happi, cuz i wan to be a part of his memory, his happiest part in life. But。。。。。。。。all i gif to him is saddness..endless saddness, disappointment and troubles......Haixxx...

I gt lots of troubles, i realli duno who to tell to, onli can update on blog. Last tyme whenever i m feelin low, i would always go find my Ah Ma. She is the one who noe mii best . But now, She has gone to Heaven...I realli duno who to find lerhx..i dun wan to disturb my Dear Dear or my frens or family members.. they oso hav their own troubles... I realli dun wish to add on to thier troubles...

Haixx....Write till here 1st.... Nxt tyme when i m in better mood..cai update my blog。。
Tc..all my frens and Dear Dear..

Dear Dear, i m sorri...Hope 3uu would be happi soon...